Undestand

I been Feeling that ....I Need help .. Like someone to help me ..I wish it could be my lady ...I feel Since Ive Helped her Better herself in this relationship ..I really wished shed help me .. I feel That All the crazy things Shes done to me and Me Still Continuing to love her ..and Me always have to be the bigger person .. for her even when im Right.. Im mean Dont get me wrong she has manifested into a beautiful girlfriend and she is 3x better than how she used to be..So now That I feel were finally at the same level in this relationship I need her to help me with my issues .. I wake up in the morning to stress.. If see doesn't talk to me ..than I lead a very lonely day ...that leads back to stress... I Need her so Badly ..but I fell if see doesn't ..understand what i need ...she'll take it in a negative way and blow me off for days ...Understand I want us to be a Fucking team .. Better than the CIA or than any team theres been before... that She Needs to listen to me Cuz I only have her best interest in mind ..and Understand I will Listen to Her Because shes the only one I trust To advise me ..Understand that Shes so close To opening up to me fully that its driving me crazy to bathe in the full light of her love .. ... I need her to Understand Im damaged also But its like she only uses the drug to calm my symptoms .. When she has the cure in her back pocket ...Understand that I hurt without her .. Understand That Im here only for her . Understand That Im Soo Proud Of Her for becoming a strong woman and begin to take a risk on me ..Understand My arms are ALways open... .. Understand that I need to be taken care of also ... ...UNderstand .. Im lost ..Understand .. That I understand she Feels lost ....But if were Both lost .. Why should be alone and lost.... Understand We Might find the path in each other .

Ladies !!!!!!!!!!

Man i could never catch a break ... i dont like being at home cuz my mom goes crazy she just goes crazy im mean im able to accept when im wrong gladly because i feel i need to be responsible for the mistakes i make .. but Everyday of yealling and calling me stupid and retarded and treating me like im beneth my 7yr old sisters ..how am i suppsed to grow up and be a man if your making me feel like shit everyday ..and my girlfriend i love her more than ive ever loved someone before ..like fareal ..she holds the longest relationship EVer in my life im been like planning on settling down with her ..but ..when something goes wrong omg .. she makes me feel it .. she goes on a storm and see me when theres an issue i want to handle and contuniue on with our night .but she never wants to fix anything .. she goes through my shit like im her stupid ex boyfriend ..To me i feel that if were serious than we need to be a team ..if i see your ass everyday of my life if EVERYone i know know that were together which ive never done before ..if im doing everything i possibly can to make you smile to make you happy ..why the heck do you need to go through my facebook nor texts to see if cheating it makes me feel like your my parent cheacking on me .. its like your saying fuck my privacy ..with dosnt make me feel like a man ether ..maybe thats why im so into sex because i feel the control .. because whenever i say how i feel to anyone in my life i get shut down slapped in the face ..told fuck you by my mom and get hung up in the face by my girlfriend who ..thinks she can do what ever she wants to me also .. all im trying to do is make their lives better and they make me feel like im shit to them .. like low of low .. my girl friend cant even admit when shes wrong she just say excuses that dont make sense to me instead of being how she said she was going to be to herself .. a open loving adult ..i want to spend the rest of my life with her but shell never get it .. which i dont understand ..these ladys in my life ..to then im useless. Im mean ..my mom doesnt talk with me . at all she think im just following girls to whereever cuz she thinks im following alex to san deigo when im the one who wanted to go their ever since i graduated high school.... n my lady .. Shes soo wonderful when she happy but if something doesnt go her way she goes crazy when i think that in a relationship things nver really go ur way ..i just wish shed treat me like her man .and be the Man she runs too when she needs help ..be the Man she wants to be with forever ..And be the Man ,.she trust ..COMPLETELY ....tonight her Ex went to her house and she didnt even tell me at all she rather psot it on facebook and tell her friend julie that she really needs someone to talk to .. How is that supposed to make me feel useless ..and she always brings up these crazy excuses that even when I did prove them she say whatever i dont care WHich to me sound like she dont care about me .. i feel use less .. Like not A man .. Like These Ladys in my life .. im worthless to .. I just Want my mom to love me i just want my lady to appreciate that im not the fuck up like her ex ...and treat me like im the only man for her like .. shell do anything for me ..and she knows ill do the same for me ...i dont understand it its soo easy LOVE ME COMPLETELY AND ILL GIVE U THE UNIVERSE ..... All I want is unconditional love .. just be honest and ill be honest more .. i want someone to fight for me ..Bee Fight for me .. Be head Over heels for me and Show It everyday No matter how i am .@!!!!!!